2002-03-18 - 1:18 p.m.
hmmm...things are getting progessively weirder and weirder... no i take that back... i am getting progessively wierder and wierder.
school, right now, is the spawn of satan. i hate it. no i take that back, i don't care about it at all... that's worse than hate. i ignore it...but it's nagging...and won't go away. and there is such little left... and one day i will miss... i can't wait for that day.
it's been a busy week. sleepless... and sex filled. and a little half assed homework was done.
this thing with alex is strange. i don't know what the rules are and i don't know where it is going. and i don't think i want him to be something other than what he is now...a boy who i enjoy to staying up all night with talking, giggling, and in between all those things lots and lots and lots of sex. and between those nights we do our own things. i am never sure when i am going to talk or hear from him though i have no doubt that i will... obession is not eating me up... and he pops up at great times. when i think he is going to flake...he doesn't. he has a strange way about him. he's intersting to me. though when out in public i have found him a bit boring once or twice. but privatly, and i am not just talking about the amazing sex, he is surprising and i it feels right being there with him... fuck if i know.
i think i am going to camp this summer. to be a concillor for inner city boys age 9-12 from NYC...it sounds like a good idea.
need to get some coffee....
