2002-03-11 - 5:50 p.m.
i could have had that nap today...if i could remembered what i read i would have known that my lab was at 6:45 not 6...and i would be sleeping soundly in my little bed with sweet dreams of sugar plums...or something like that.
spring break came and went. and it kicked my ass. i was drunk with one of favorite people for a solid week and i feel like i am never gonna catch up on sleep.
new orleans was incredible. i don't know that i have ever enjoyed max as much. a few conversations were had that validated the reasons i have picked him to be the best friend. conversations that should have happened years ago...but mean more now. and came out easier because the were drunken. the whole trip was so good. and has left me exhausted.
i got back on saturday and then proceded to sleep for 19 hours. had a sleepy day with michael and a somewhat of a surprise yet welcomed call from alex. it's wierd to think that he may very well be on the way to being my boyfriend. it's been a long time since i have had one of those. it was that "welcome back i would like to see you tonight" call that made me realize that we didn't just sleep together. so i couldn't see him yesturday...but we are having dinner tomorrow... this is nice. and shitty timing. i am not sure i have the time to include this boy in my life right now. but if it's worth it i know i will do it anyway.
and there isn't much telling me that this shouldnt' happen...except that he looks strikingly like adam in the dark, the girl magnet boy who was one of my closest friends...the reason we were so close is because we were like siblings from day one....and it's wierd looking at a boy while his hand is between your thighs that looks like a boy who was always just like a brother. hopefully i get over this. kinda funny.
my life needs major organization right now. startig with my bedroom...than school...than everything else. and i don't feel like working on any of it... what i want to do is share a bottle of wine with alex...and then make out. or taking a nap doesn't sound half bad.
things are good...maybe only because they are crazy...
