2002-02-06 - 2:09 p.m.
"mary it's all your fault, you put me in this wierd place today...well not today... and not last night but it's your fault mary...and it's not you.you threw everything up in the air for me. it's not you...it's what you make me want to do"
that's what i got told today...what the fuck does that mean. how i am i to react to that. because you know what it not my fault for putting you in a wierd place...and it's your fault for telling me that in a place where i couldn't respond. and i feel a little angry... and a lot confused... a week ago i didn't know you and now...now... i don't know.
maybe we should have brought this shit up, last night when we had a chance. maybe then i would understand. and then maybe it would've hit us in such an uncomfortable place with you, me, and your roommate who knows exactly what's going on. leaving me with a confused expression and a tummy ache.i am equally to blame for that.
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i am at school...about ten minutes ago i just sold the last 2 tickets to the vagina monolgues.we are now officially sold out. 400 people are going to see me orgasm on stage. i'm gonna be that girl who does that thing on stage...and that is mildly appealing.
i really an't wait for this to all be over. i need some time to myself.but i will miss these women these nights these connections that will slowly fade after closing night.
****************************************well...the clock says it's time for the class i dread the most.
.mary...
