2002-01-23 - 11:55 a.m.
i hate cable tv...i hate tv. it sucks me in and then the next thing i know four hours have past and i have found mtv to be somehow interesting. and my homework remains undone. i don't even miss tv when its not around and now i live in a house with 80,000 channels... it makes me lazy and unhealthy. uncreative and boring.
the vagina monolouges are coming up. and i am getting nervous. really nervous. faking an orgasm in frount of a lot people is going to be fun... and scary. especially with my mother in the audience.
last night in my dream my mom slit my throat for bringing her the wrong nuts...
lately i have forgotten that i have a brother. i haven't talked to him in soo long. i miss him. it's so wierd that i have no idea what he does in a normal day. that i have no idea what he's relationship with his wife is like. i don't even know if they love each other. he is so far away in every sense. i want to be close to him in a new way. not i am the baby and he is my hero sort of way. we all live so far away from each other. i think i will call him soon. make time to reconnect.
