2002-01-14 - 11:51 a.m.
ahhh...feeling annoyed.just because i am busy.
the weekend began with a little white pill...filled in with beer and whiskey...and attemped sleep. there was also a mistake, loads of giggles and pretend inflated egos, and candid talks about sex. i am still trying to get back to normal. i need it right now. i need to feel healthy. and it's cold outside.
i keep smelling him in the strangest places...and it's not like me to do that. maybe it's because he is in soo many of my dreams lately. he used to never be. but he now has at a walk on role every night. and i don't remember until later when i am in class in a different state and i smell him. it's creeping me out.
i wish she would call...i just want to know that she is alive. i really don''t know if she is.
wish could write more. but i feeling drained and i must go to class...
.mary...
