2002-01-09 - 11:51 a.m.
oh...it was a good time last night. it always is when he is around.
we danced perfectly to perfect elvis birthday music and he smelled perfectly of a perfect mix peppermint and a light wiff of BO from time to time. there are really not many people who i like to dance properly or whatever...i loose my rythm...but it felt right and comfortable. and then we went home to his house. and giggles and i packed up sal and went home.
he is amazing in everyway that i know him. and he is sexy..and goofy and silly...so many things that i want...and yet something keeps it from happening...everything is there that should be. but one problem...he is perfect.. i keep looking for something that makes him not so rounded or compassionate or unassuming or creative... i don't think there is that thing and that is scary. it ither means he is hiding a big dark secret like human heads in the fridge or maybe he he is unbelievably one sided...and that one side is beautifully put together...but i want more depth...when i say depth i mean i want to know that he is human...and he fucks up.
until then...i have a half assed crush that could be soo much more.
anyhoo...my dreams have been weird and i have class in 10 minutes...bye.
