2001-12-31 - 12:36 p.m.
i have been reminded...and i feel better about, well, just aout everything.
it is nights like last night that make it all worth it. all my confusion. frustration...love.
we finally talked about it. though just a few words were spilt, a few more hung in the air for a while, it all work out well. i feel lighter. understood.
and i belted out a silly confession that i have been holding on to for a few days. very silly. and we laughed.
i am in a slomp right now. it's heavy and soft. and for the first time i was able to talk about it. out loud and make sense of it to myself and someone else. it felt good. and the best part...is we laughed about it all.
this morning i woke this morning feeling better...a little giggly. a lot energised.
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new year's eve...hmmm. grrr.
it never is as monumental as i imagine.and it won't be tonight. but that's ok. i don't want it to be. this last year has meant too much to me to celebrate it's passing with a vengence. i prefer to give it a quiet "see ya around". i don't do so well with good byes.
.mary...
