2001-12-02 - 10:23 a.m.
just woke up to the annoying sounds of my roommate and her republican boyfriend playing with a dog that likes to shit in the house.
hmmm...i guess i am thrilled to be leaving this house in less than a week. but somehow that means i have to write my paper. i am not sure why...but i need to get it done this week.
anyway, i was having a crazy dream i don't remember a whole lot of.
but i do remember that i was max and snancy. must have been in washington. the two of them were going to go hide under a bridge. there they were planning to throw wet sponges at "the ultra hip wealthy kids". i was going to meet them later. when i got there they look cute and sweet and kinda like some sort of woodland creatures. all snug up against the ground and the bridge. playful and completely ready for the "ultra hip wealthy kids" so we could throw wet sponges at them.
well...they never showed. and somehow i ended up with max on a boat. but we didn't know how to make it go. so we asked a guy that was on a wheelchair and crutches. he was an X-pirate. (i know, i know once a pirate always a pirate...is that the saying??) anyway i kept he kept falling and was sure i was tripping him...and i wasn't. he was tripping over rocks.
later i ended up on a huge boat. and then i woke up in an unpleasant manner.
can't really figure that one out. don't know that i want to.
i saw sadye last night for the first time in awhile. it was good and filled with giggles.
i would really love to have breakfast with michael this morning...he makes me think. and right now i feel i need to be forced into thinking. but i am not going to call him.
really what i need to be doing is thinking about her. sending every extra amount of energy to her. she's so far away right now...in so many ways. i don't understand any of it. i wish i could. and parts of me just want to shake her until it all falls out.
i don't want to lose you...
